June 5, 2018. 10 weeks since Adam died.
It is 1:50pm right now and I am at home. I have been alternating between sitting on my porch and reading, and cleaning inside. Now it’s time for some blogging!
Yesterday (June 4) was an awesome start to my summer vacation. I woke up around 10:00. I sat on the porch and read the daily devotional from “Jesus Always” by Sarah Young. If you are looking for an awesome devotional book, I highly recommend this one! Yesterday’s devotion was all about Jesus being our JOY. The first paragraph really spoke to me:
“I AM YOUR JOY! Let these words reverberate in your mind and sink into yoouur innermost being. I – your Companion who will never leave you – am a boundless source of Joy. If you really believe this, you can rest in the truth that every day of your life is a good day. So refuse to use the label “a bad day,” even when you’re struggling deeply. (I underlined that sentence!) Your circumstances may indeed be very hard, but I am nonetheless with you, holding you by your right hand. There is good to be found in this day – and every day – because of My constant Presence and steadfast LOVE.”
The part about Jesus being my Companion who will never leave me really spoke to me. I KNOW that truth in my mind, but in my human nature it is hard to completely grasp. I must focus on the fact that even though my earthly companion (Adam) is now gone, Jesus will never be gone. He will ALWAYS be with me, no matter what! The part about refusing to use the label “a bad day” also spoke to me because I have a tendency to do just that! I need to consciously put forth an effort to refuse using that label. 🙂
Around mid-morning I headed out to run errands. I was a busy little bee! As I was driving, I thought about the devotion saying that Jesus is holding me by my right hand…..and I thought about how whenever Adam was riding with me, he would hold my right hand. For a few moments as I was driving I stretched out my right hand, over my console, and imagined that Jesus…..and Adam…..were holding my hand.
First, I had to deposit a check for my roommate, who recently had surgery on one of her shoulders and cannot drive. Thankfully, no questions were asked and the deposit went smoothly! Next, I returned a dress to Kohl’s. If you’ve been keeping up with my posts, you might recall that I bought a dress for my youngest brother’s wedding but I was not 100% crazy about it so I ended up getting another one. I took the first one back. Next, I went to my eye doctor to finalize my contact prescription and order lenses. Getting the correct lenses has been a fiasco, but I will spare you the details of that! Ha ha. Next, I went to get my vehicle inspected. My registration was out at the end of May so I am a little bit behind schedule on that. Hopefully I won’t get pulled over before I get my new registration sticker! I went to an inspection station that I had never been to before. I was thankful when I walked in and saw a co-worker / friend. The station only had one person working and there was a bit of a wait, so it was very nice to be able to sit and talk with her while we waited.
Next was Natural Grocers, then Target, then back home! I read and cleaned – same as today – then I left again to drive to Temple (approximately 45 miles) to meet up with my mom for dinner and a movie. I live 70 miles (1 1/2 hours) from my mom, and Temple is a good meeting spot for us. We had an amazing time. We ate at LongHorn Steakhouse – delicious – and then we went to see “The Book Club.” After I watched it with my teacher friends last Thursday evening, I knew that my mom would enjoy it, and she sure did! I am so thankful we were able to see it together.
After the movie I headed back home; got back a little after 10pm and went straight to bed. I wanted to blog but I was exhausted!
One other thing I’d like to mention from yesterday…..one of my friends posted something on Facebook that really stood out to me, and I saved it on my phone. It says: “Not all storms come to disrupt your life, some come to clear your path.” I think of this in regards to Adam. His death was most certainly a storm in my life. We, with our human minds, thought that we would spend the rest of our lives together. Obviously, those human thoughts of ours did not align with God’s plan. Perhaps God allowed Adam’s death in order to clear my path for something even better. Losing him was…..and is…..super tough; however, I do look forward to what God has in store for me. 🙂
Okay, I believe I am caught up for now. I’m going to return to reading and cleaning…..reading and cleaning…..Ha ha! I love reading and I love being productive around the house. It never fails that things fall to the wayside during the school year, so I am always playing catch-up during the summer time! I hope each of you has a wonderful afternoon! 🙂
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