Whirlwind

October 1, 2018.  8:29pm.  I am still alive!  Ha ha.  I am not here to write a whole lot, but simply to let you know that I AM here.  The best word I could think of to title this post is “whirlwind,” because that is what life has been lately.  A whirlwind.  

Since Daddy’s death, the month of September has always been rough.  I think this may have been the roughest yet, especially the past week.  

Monday, September 24:  Two years since mine and Adam’s first date

Wednesday, September 26:  Six months since the fire

Tbursday, September 27:  Six months since Adam died

Saturday, September 29:  22 years since daddy’s death

In addition, some other sad news was added into the mix, that of which I do not feel at liberty to talk about yet.  

I don’t know why we experience the things we experience, but if you have read my posts prior to this you are aware that I fully believe that God is in control and He has a plan.  

I am thankful that September is finally over with, and am glad to start a new month.  This is my favorite time of year, and this year I am going to try my best to enjoy it as much as I can.  (I am sure I probably say this every year, ha ha).  

School is in full swing, and, as it typically does at this time, is starting to get stressful.  

I find it odd that when I first began this blog, I had such a strong urge to write every day, and if you have followed me, you know that was my plan – to post daily.  Then one time when I was writing, it was extremely emotional for me and I think since then, I have been more hesitant to write every day.  I have found that even when I REALLY want to share stuff, I realize that I am not emotionally ready and I end up holding off.  I don’t know if that makes any sense or not, but that is the best way I know to explain it.  I appreciate each and every one of you who is reading this, and I ask for your patience if there is a long lapse of time between posts.  I am learning that I need to be emotionally and mentally ready before writing.  

Before closing this post, I will leave you with one story, which I came across back in August.  It was profound to me.

“A man saw a snake being burned to death and decided to take it out of the fire.  When he did, the snake bit him, causing excruciating pain.  The man dropped the snake, and the reptile fell right back into the fire.  So, the man grabbed a metal pole, took the snake out of the fire, and saved it’s life.  Someone who was watching approached the man and said, ‘That snake bit you.  Why are you still trying to save it?’ The man replied:  ‘The nature of the snake is to bite, but that’s not gonna change my nature, which is to help.’  Do not change your nature simply because someone harms you.  Do not lose your good heart, only learn to take precautions.”  

I hope that story speaks to someone in the same way it spoke to me.  May God bless each of you!  Until next time…..

Note:  My blog posts are shown with the most recent posts at the top.  If you’d like to read about how this journey began, scroll to my first post, titled “The Journey Begins.”  🙂